I've never had a best friend before. Now I've lost the first and only best friend I've had. Music helps, barely. Everything helps, barely. Was studying with a blockmate the other day, and I walked her home. She walked fast because night was dangerous, and I told her if something happened, just run, I'll  hold them off. She asked me if knew martial arts. I said no, but I think I've lived a good life. I should stop asking myself why before going to bed, it's becoming a habit. I should get a stressball I can squish throughout the day. I need to stop scratching this pimple on my chin. I need to sweat.